Mommy’s Worried

I used to joke around that the great accomplishment of my early 20’s was perfect attendance at all the EDM events held at that time.

Now, it seems that my little three-year old has inherited my love for the genre. She’s currently obsessed with Zedd, who she calls Zoo. In particular, she loves this “party song”

Party song. Hannah would ask for it and say that “she wants to party”

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I feel like I’m having a heart attack.

I’ve written about how I will never be the cool parent. This prediction has never rang more true now that my sweet little girl has expressed music preferences that mimic mine. Are you sure you don’t want to listen to the Philippine Philharmonic instead, sweetheart? Enya, perhaps?

I know that at this age she just appreciates how it sounds like and will not be running off to the clubs.

But still.

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And when she’s older and actually going out, so what? Lots of people went out to party and remained perfectly safe and made sound decisions their whole lives.

But still.

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As parents, we do what we can to raise responsible adults. We teach. We discipline. We say yes when it’s for something good and no when it’s necessary. Right now, I’m teaching Hannah the importance of being clean and organized. At some point, we’ll have to have a conversation on things that are far worse than Play-Doh crumbs on the bed.

I am absolutely terrified at the thought that I won’t always be able shield her from the evil influences in this world. My worries run from exposure to second hand smoke to lecherous men. Oh, the lecherous men. Keep them far, far away from her.

But I know that eventually, it won’t be my role to shoo away the bad from her life. She’ll have to do that for herself. When that happens, I would have to trust her and trust myself that I raised her well.

But despite this knowledge, I reserve the right to worry about her.

That is why I I hope that her concept of party animals be of this kind for as long as possible.

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Having Children

Kids: they change things.

Before we had tiny human beings in our household, my husband and I were able to do things without much thought.

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But with kids around, spontaneity needs careful planning.kids3

When it was just the two of us, showing affection was as easy as reaching out for his hand.

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Just kidding. As if they would ever stay still like that.

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My husband and I used to curl up on the couch and watch movies after dinner. It was sweet.

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Now that we have two kids, we still watch movies after dinner. But the movies we see have become less varied. Specifically, a cute little movie named Frozen, which we have watched approximately 3,562,125 times.

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Lately, my husband and I have been talking about how important it is to set aside time to be out of the parenting zone.

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So we tried.

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… and ended up talking about grown up things.

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What can be more grown up than being parents, right?

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Like I said, kids: they change things.

P.S.

Having kids did this to her marriage.

Last few weeks

There’s pregnant.

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And then there’s very pregnant.

At around 36 weeks, a woman develops abilities that include carrying a significant amount of weight the whole day , washing her toes without actually seeing them, and growing a life inside her.

I may be biased here, but frankly, it’s comparable to being a superhuman.

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Just don’t ask her to save the day, because if we’re being completely honest, all she would rather do is sleep, sleep, and sleep.

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Good night.

A is for Applesauce, B is for Bacon

Images via Tommy Perez’s Instagram

Talk about playing with your food. Designer Tommy Perez, taught his daughter, Zoe, the alphabet through her favorite treats. In a project called A to Zoe, he doesn’t just use the food as examples for the letter sounds, but uses them to demonstrate the appearance of the letters themselves.  

Me and my haphazardly printed out letter flashcards for my daughter’s ABC lessons are ashamed. 

Would you be friends with yourself?

It depends on when I met me. As a kid, yes. In my early twenties, not so much. Now, definitely — finally, someone who understands how great my baby is..

Japanese photographer Chino Otsuka’s “Imagine Finding Me” series shows us what happens when you meet your former self. She digitally placed recent images of her into old photographs. It’s eerie, but definitely beautiful.

images from chino.co.uk

Life with an almost two-year old

Every night, I dream that our hours are spend bringing Pinterest to life. But yeah, she’s one and a half, so… reality.Image

My Big Mommy Mistake…

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… is that I overestimate myself. I’m a mommy, not a superhuman.

Rest is good. Sleep is good. Asking for help is ok.